Getting closer

Good morning folks Had two advents yesterday I was dreaming for I tend to sleep a few hours before noon this is from years of working graveyard shifts. I talked to a family member her ex had died one of my dreams was about dying I txted hey you still alive when I suddenly found out she was with her ex who just died. I try not to share my day visions with others anymore for time and time again they are so close to whats going on in their lives it creeps them out. I also dreamt I had both my feet removed and was running on artificial feet having trouble with my feet these last three years this concerned me then I dreamt that me and a friend were driving at night in a city bus which I have done often on the way home at night when we went off off the edge of the highway and were falling I remember saying this looks like this is it for us then I woke up. Now how could this be getting closer you say well in my twisted crazy mind years ago I remember looking out of my front window when all of a sudden I bolt of lightning hit straight accross the street from me and I was temporarily blinded by it. See I was thinking about my dream of having no feet wondering if this ment I was losing touch with mother earth for I see so many signs in my life my mind began to wonder. Many times I have asked for a sign and pow there it is I was wondering during a thunderstorm if the almighty was still close to me when suddenly a loud bang and my poor trailer shook my pc went out and the flash was incredible see lightning had hit where the old tree we had removed was because it hung right over my room and if it ever broke back then this room would be flater than a pancake. That bolt was ten feet away from me but I was in my room. I looked up and thought I was just asking that could of killed me except the wall as thin as they are here saved me. You see years agoI was wondering the same thing when things were going rough. this time the answere was alot closer and I doubt I will be asking that one again oiy That was too close becareful for what you ask for in life. Rings true and I know better we are never alone. Jamerson Rising

What is real?

This internet what is real this vast ocean of thoughts emotions and information is changing our world at an incredible pace. I will be more careful with this force in the future I reached out and got to close (once again) to an angel out there see When I get close I tend to read a personsons emotions so to speak and some get frightend that some how I know to much about them. I have been this way since I was little there was a time I could shake a persons hand and get flash backs of their past their hidden pain desires I was a recluse for a long time because of this till I learned to change the channel so to speak. I still look after my own little family and leave that vast ocean alone. For in being able to read a persons feelings I fall in love way to easy only to watch the tide pull out and find myself in that empty alone place once again. So I reconnect to mother earth and the great spirit ,jesus and that eternal love the holy ghost once again. I don't look at sin with damnation but unconditional love it is anothers wish to use their free will as fit. It is my wish to love the universe as it it is and let it be what it is. For I am just a small drop in this great ocean of universal intelligence I couldn't change you if I wanted too. That is not my intention. I can love you yes for what it's worth and then let it be. See that has been the down fall of mankind through the ages to control to hate to love with imposed unrealistic demands and expectations in return. I smile and gently float away in this vast world and simply let be. Jamerson Rising

I feel the wind changing again

I felt the wind changing when a close friend of mine moved on with her life a day later I get a phone call from way in the past a young lady whos mother was my ex's long departed sisters only daughter very sad that story this young lady had to grow up all her own all these years for when the state gets ahold of you you can't go back and at that young age a lot of time and people get lost. Lucky my son had found Me (another story on that) she ran into him and through him was able to find me why me I think because at the time I tried to step in with my little family and raise her but the state said no. She was lost for so many years I am probily the only one who is left that will help. Like an ocean tide goes out lost forever it feels like then when it comes back in a new set of faces problems or new lessons to be learned some time I feel we go over the same things over and over till we get it right like a training lesson so our souls can advance to the next level. I really miss this kid funny how some people when they get older just plain shut their doors to orphans even to family members being so afraid to lose what they have. Now she has lost her kids and is so alone in this world and so lost it seems. I will do what I can it is so hard to pick up the empty pieces and go on in life. Doors shutting left and right no where to go living from one friend to the next that is no way to live. So Painful so lonely what has this world become. I belive I was in this place at the right time to watch over my little ones I walked out the door all the kids that live around here call me grandpa they get this from my grandkids anyway I head out the door on my way to work and the little neighbors grand kid who was visiting her grandma ask me if I could be her grampa too he died last year so very sad. I guess when one gets to be one that is something special to little kids children they have a magik all their own I winked at her and said you got it kiddo. Man my family has grown so much. So when I get this call I was happy to have found another lost one. I finaly replaced the old chevy truck with a dodge and it is way over due to go search for my father who I lost contact with ten years ago he has so many little faces he hasn't seen I remembered he used to love these little people as he would call them. So when this little angel asked me this I remembered I have some business of my own to take care of my father is 88 years old though some in my family have lived to 100. I need to get going on this soon. as for my niece we will see what we can do for her. So many families just shut their doors and look the other way that's sad well not this old indian they are all part of me that we carry to the very end. I wish you all well Jamerson Rising

The shadow of the past

Hello folks its the middle of the night today I was looking at some old records in the 1940th censes at ancestry.com one of my many hobbies Their staring up at me was my grandfathers name my grandmother my mom and her older brother. I have been working on this family tree for three or four years now. So many people have come and gone.There has been a few times from out of the blue that one of my distant relations will e-mail me thanking me for caring when so many just let the past go. I had an aunt my moms youngest sister had twins well all grown up since they live in Texas now they didin't know very much about their mom's family. They hired a professional who found me what a gold mine. I have found the towns many have grown up in the names of even the neighbors that lived next door. I have the gift of remote vision past and future I can picture bits and pieces of their lives like shadows that come to visit. I see things in my grandkids that trigger such memories. Like a good spirit watching over me giving me a memory of a past event. Some times when you remember something out of the clear blue its a spirit sitting next to you sharing one of theirs. Their is so much to this world we have forgotten we will live forever so make your world heaven not a hell only two choices my dear friends please think about this when making any decisions in your life. We shall all account for everything some day. Have a beautiful day. Jamerson Rising

Happy Easter

Hello folks this time of year I have the worst luck food poisoning that was fun and usually my ride breaks down but I went without one for a year just for the hell of it. See transportation is free for me so I cut this bill this year. being out side most of the time like 18 hours of the day has had its toll on my health. Hey happy Easter wow to me and I know I'm weird I woudn't take Easter away from kids. Good friday to my was a lynching plain and simple and three days later I still feel bad about it! Heck all these years later still peeved. Resurection reincarnation kinda sound alot alike don't they well before the holy ones start yelling their beliefs at me I will leave it at that But for an instant what if all the enlightend holy men of the past some how when you really get down to it were of the same divine faith in different languages and different custems granted but of the same do unto others as you would unto yourself basic principles. What if Christ has been doing so much more then our little minds can imagine well just a thought I hope your easters went well as for me things are looking pretty good. Take care my friends Jamerson Rising

This needed a closer look

Hello folks wishing you a good day I came accross this about half a year ago. I am always looking into scifi and different relgions history the paranormal being a writer make me curious like a cat when I came accross this u-tube video by Michael Fazzio ( angls on the ark) he wrote an E-book you can't find it in a book store but you can get it from from watching one of his videos and then you can get the info to purchase the book. I couldn't put it down he wrote about how the one dollar bill relates to the bible revalations and genesis and from what I read he makes a pretty strong case it will raise a few eyebrows that's for sure. Facinating whats going on in the world I have been watching and knowing alot of what's been happening since earlier times being a history nut. But Micheal has opened my eyes to a whole new level of understanding He has been touched by the almighty to do this. Normaly I won't write about this for strange things tend to happen to people who know and tell what's going on but we have a choice in the future to follow the devil or to follow our God and not be fooled by our so called churches and government. They will be mad as hell when they find out ( they probably have by now) that they have been hoowinked by the almighty and spread his word via the one dollar bill around the world haha My hats off to ya Michael for having the guts to tell the truth on them evil people the best of luck to ya. I won't write about this again but please read the book and see the proof of God before your very eyes before they (the powers that be) take away the dollar bill to even further hide the truth from us. And may God help us all for whats coming up next. Jameson Rising

Keep crying

Hello folks My Grandma used to say keep crying and that man upstairs will give you plenty more to cry about. Well I don't believe it was him passing out misery. I feel when one cries and whines it does attract more of the same negativity like a cancer it seems to grow and affect other people too. This month being a two month in numerology carries with it a lot of emotions yep crybabies man at work they are all riled up haha over nothing I get less lip out of my grandkids these are grown ups mind you reduced to three year olds over petty differences. OMG kindergarten all over again. Driving down the road snowy slippery and people actually drive faster cross the road and they speed up driving towards you. People are so spoiled selfish oh give me a paddle and send me back in time I would of fixed a lot of behinds haha if only some one would have taken the time to care back then a little respect please. Now a days just try it out comes the cell phone and one word lawyer and dad I'm gonna own your a...s hee but seriously folks try to teach respect and caring to these young people we leave watching them up to the schools and babysitters no time for them and the God forbid the tv that little box is one of the main reasons respect has gone out the window. I only supervise one day of the week now a days and I'm glad I never liked babysitting just not my cup o tea hee. Well I find myself biting my upper lip and holding my tongue thinking and these are grown people fighting or whining over nothing. KIDS ARE BEING MOLDED INTO SHEEP mark my words this means trouble in our future. Well I said my peace good luck with the young people we are counting on you future parents. Jamerson Rising